It was now that I began sensibly to feel how much more happy this life I now
led was, with all its miserable circumstances, than the wicked, cursed, abominable
life I led all the past part of my days; and now I changed both my sorrows and my
joys; my very desires altered, my affections changed their gusts, and my delights
were perfectly new from what they were at my first coming, or, indeed, for the two
years past.
Before, as I walked about, either on my hunting or for viewing the country, the
anguish of my soul at my condition would break out upon me on a sudden, and my very
heart would die within me, to think of the woods, the mountains, the deserts I was
in, and how I was a prisoner, locked up with the eternal bars and bolts of the ocean,
in an uninhabited wilderness, without redemption. In the midst of the greatest composure
of my mind, this would break out upon me like a storm, and make me wring my hands
and weep like a child. Sometimes it would take me in the middle of my work, and
I would immediately sit down and sigh, and look upon the ground for an hour or two
together; and this was still worse to me, for if I could burst out into tears, or
vent myself by words, it would go off, and the grief, having exhausted itself, would
abate.
But now I began to exercise myself with new thoughts: I daily read the word of
God, and applied all the comforts of it to my present state. One morning, being
very sad, I opened the Bible upon these words, "I will never, never leave thee,
nor forsake thee." Immediately it occurred that these words were to me; why else
should they be directed in such a manner, just at the moment when I was mourning
over my condition, as one forsaken of God and man? "Well, then," said I, "if God
does not forsake me, of what ill consequence can it be, or what matters it, though
the world should all forsake me, seeing on the other hand, if I had all the world,
and should lose the favour and blessing of God, there would be no comparison in
the loss?"
From this moment I began to conclude in my mind that it was possible for me to
be more happy in this forsaken, solitary condition than it was probable I should
ever have been in any other particular state in the world; and with this thought
I was going to give thanks to God for bringing me to this place. I know not what
it was, but something shocked my mind at that thought, and I durst not speak the
words. "How canst thou become such a hypocrite," said I, even audibly, "to pretend
to be thankful for a condition which, however thou mayest endeavour to be contented
with, thou wouldst rather pray heartily to be delivered from?" So I stopped there;
but though I could not say I thanked God for being there, yet I sincerely gave thanks
to God for opening my eyes, by whatever afflicting providences, to see the former
condition of my life, and to mourn for my wickedness, and repent. I never opened
the Bible, or shut it, but my very soul within me blessed God for directing my friend
in England, without any order of mine, to pack it up among my goods, and for assisting
me afterwards to save it out of the wreck of the ship.
Thus, and in this disposition of mind, I began my third year; and though I have
not given the reader the trouble of so particular an account of my works this year
as the first, yet in general it may be observed that I was very seldom idle, but
having regularly divided my time according to the several daily employments that
were before me, such as: first, my duty to God, and the reading the Scriptures,
which I constantly set apart some time for thrice every day; secondly, the going
abroad with my gun for food, which generally took me up three hours in every morning,
when it did not rain; thirdly, the ordering, cutting, preserving, and cooking what
I had killed or caught for my supply; these took up great part of the day. Also,
it is to be considered, that in the middle of the day, when the sun was in the zenith,
the violence of the heat was too great to stir out; so that about four hours in
the evening was all the time I could be supposed to work in, with this exception,
that sometimes I changed my hours of hunting and working, and went to work in the
morning, and abroad with my gun in the afternoon.
To this short time allowed for labour I desire may be added the exceeding laboriousness
of my work; the many hours which, for want of tools, want of help, and want of skill,
everything I did took up out of my time. For example, I was full two and forty days
in making a board for a long shelf, which I wanted in my cave; whereas, two sawyers,
with their tools and a saw-pit, would have cut six of them out of the same tree
in half a day.
My case was this: it was to be a large tree which was to be cut down, because
my board was to be a broad one. This tree I was three days in cutting down, and
two more cutting off the boughs, and reducing it to a log or piece of timber. With
inexpressible hacking and hewing I reduced both the sides of it into chips till
it began to be light enough to move; then I turned it, and made one side of it smooth
and flat as a board from end to end; then, turning that side downward, cut the other
side til I brought the plank to be about three inches thick, and smooth on both
sides. Any one may judge the labour of my hands in such a piece of work; but labour
and patience carried me through that, and many other things. I only observe this
in particular, to show the reason why so much of my time went away with so little
work - viz. that what might be a little to be done with help and tools, was a vast
labour and required a prodigious time to do alone, and by hand. But notwithstanding
this, with patience and labour I got through everything that my circumstances made
necessary to me to do, as will appear by what follows.
I was now, in the months of November and December, expecting my crop of barley
and rice. The ground I had manured and dug up for them was not great; for, as I
observed, my seed of each was not above the quantity of half a peck, for I had lost
one whole crop by sowing in the dry season. But now my crop promised very well,
when on a sudden I found I was in danger of losing it all again by enemies of several
sorts, which it was scarcely possible to keep from it; as, first, the goats, and
wild creatures which I called hares, who, tasting the sweetness of the blade, lay
in it night and day, as soon as it came up, and eat it so close, that it could get
no time to shoot up into stalk.
This I saw no remedy for but by making an enclosure about it with a hedge; which
I did with a great deal of toil, and the more, because it required speed. However,
as my arable land was but small, suited to my crop, I got it totally well fenced
in about three weeks' time; and shooting some of the creatures in the daytime, I
set my dog to guard it in the night, tying him up to a stake at the gate, where
he would stand and bark all night long; so in a little time the enemies forsook
the place, and the corn grew very strong and well, and began to ripen apace.
But as the beasts ruined me before, while my corn was in the blade, so the birds
were as likely to ruin me now, when it was in the ear; for, going along by the place
to see how it throve, I saw my little crop surrounded with fowls, of I know not
how many sorts, who stood, as it were, watching till I should be gone. I immediately
let fly among them, for I always had my gun with me. I had no sooner shot, but there
rose up a little cloud of fowls, which I had not seen at all, from among the corn
itself.
This touched me sensibly, for I foresaw that in a few days they would devour
all my hopes; that I should be starved, and never be able to raise a crop at all;
and what to do I could not tell; however, I resolved not to lose my corn, if possible,
though I should watch it night and day. In the first place, I went among it to see
what damage was already done, and found they had spoiled a good deal of it; but
that as it was yet too green for them, the loss was not so great but that the remainder
was likely to be a good crop if it could be saved.
I stayed by it to load my gun, and then coming away, I could easily see the thieves
sitting upon all the trees about me, as if they only waited till I was gone away,
and the event proved it to be so; for as I walked off, as if I was gone, I was no
sooner out of their sight than they dropped down one by one into the corn again.
I was so provoked, that I could not have patience to stay till more came on, knowing
that every grain that they ate now was, as it might be said, a peck-loaf to me in
the consequence; but coming up to the hedge, I fired again, and killed three of
them. This was what I wished for; so I took them up, and served them as we serve
notorious thieves in England - hanged them in chains, for a terror to of them. It
is impossible to imagine that this should have such an effect as it had, for the
fowls would not only not come at the corn, but, in short, they forsook all that
part of the island, and I could never see a bird near the place as long as my scarecrows
hung there. This I was very glad of, you may be sure, and about the latter end of
December, which was our second harvest of the year, I reaped my corn.
I was sadly put to it for a scythe or sickle to cut it down, and all I could
do was to make one, as well as I could, out of one of the broadswords, or cutlasses,
which I saved among the arms out of the ship. However, as my first crop was but
small, I had no great difficulty to cut it down; in short, I reaped it in my way,
for I cut nothing off but the ears, and carried it away in a great basket which
I had made, and so rubbed it out with my hands; and at the end of all my harvesting,
I found that out of my half-peck of seed I had near two bushels of rice, and about
two bushels and a half of barley; that is to say, by my guess, for I had no measure
at that time.
However, this was a great encouragement to me, and I foresaw that, in time, it
would please God to supply me with bread. And yet here I was perplexed again, for
I neither knew how to grind or make meal of my corn, or indeed how to clean it and
part it; nor, if made into meal, how to make bread of it; and if how to make it,
yet I knew not how to bake it. These things being added to my desire of having a
good quantity for store, and to secure a constant supply, I resolved not to taste
any of this crop but to preserve it all for seed against the next season; and in
the meantime to employ all my study and hours of working to accomplish this great
work of providing myself with corn and bread.
It might be truly said, that now I worked for my bread. I believe few people
have thought much upon the strange multitude of little things necessary in the providing,
producing, curing, dressing, making, and finishing this one article of bread.
I, that was reduced to a mere state of nature, found this to my daily discouragement;
and was made more sensible of it every hour, even after I had got the first handful
of seed-corn, which, as I have said, came up unexpectedly, and indeed to a surprise.
First, I had no plough to turn up the earth - no spade or shovel to dig it. Well,
this I conquered by making me a wooden spade, as I observed before; but this did
my work but in a wooden manner; and though it cost me a great many days to make
it, yet, for want of iron, it not only wore out soon, but made my work the harder,
and made it be performed much worse. However, this I bore with, and was content
to work it out with patience, and bear with the badness of the performance. When
the corn was sown, I had no harrow, but was forced to go over it myself, and drag
a great heavy bough of a tree over it, to scratch it, as it may be called, rather
than rake or harrow it. When it was growing, and grown, I have observed already
how many things I wanted to fence it, secure it, mow or reap it, cure and carry
it home, thrash, part it from the chaff, and save it. Then I wanted a mill to grind
it sieves to dress it, yeast and salt to make it into bread, and an oven to bake
it; but all these things I did without, as shall be observed; and yet the corn was
an inestimable comfort and advantage to me too. All this, as I said, made everything
laborious and tedious to me; but that there was no help for. Neither was my time
so much loss to me, because, as I had divided it, a certain part of it was every
day appointed to these works; and as I had resolved to use none of the corn for
bread till I had a greater quantity by me, I had the next six months to apply myself
wholly, by labour and invention, to furnish myself with utensils proper for the
performing all the operations necessary for making the corn, when I had it, fit
for my use.
CHAPTER IX - A BOAT
BUT first I was to prepare more land, for I had now seed enough to sow above
an acre of ground. Before I did this, I had a week's work at least to make me a
spade, which, when it was done, was but a sorry one indeed, and very heavy, and
required double labour to work with it. However, I got through that, and sowed my
seed in two large flat pieces of ground, as near my house as I could find them to
my mind, and fenced them in with a good hedge, the stakes of which were all cut
off that wood which I had set before, and knew it would grow; so that, in a year's
time, I knew I should have a quick or living hedge, that would want but little repair.
This work did not take me up less than three months, because a great part of that
time was the wet season, when I could not go abroad. Within-doors, that is when
it rained and I could not go out, I found employment in the following occupations
- always observing, that all the while I was at work I diverted myself with talking
to my parrot, and teaching him to speak; and I quickly taught him to know his own
name, and at last to speak it out pretty loud, "Poll," which was the first word
I ever heard spoken in the island by any mouth but my own. This, therefore, was
not my work, but an assistance to my work; for now, as I said, I had a great employment
upon my hands, as follows: I had long studied to make, by some means or other, some
earthen vessels, which, indeed, I wanted sorely, but knew not where to come at them.
However, considering the heat of the climate, I did not doubt but if I could find
out any clay, I might make some pots that might, being dried in the sun, be hard
enough and strong enough to bear handling, and to hold anything that was dry, and
required to be kept so; and as this was necessary in the preparing corn, meal, &c.,
which was the thing I was doing, I resolved to make some as large as I could, and
fit only to stand like jars, to hold what should be put into them.