I looked frequently at it all that day, and soon perceived that it did not move;
so I presently concluded that it was a ship at anchor; and being eager, you may
be sure, to be satisfied, I took my gun in my hand, and ran towards the south side
of the island to the rocks where I had formerly been carried away by the current;
and getting up there, the weather by this time being perfectly clear, I could plainly
see, to my great sorrow, the wreck of a ship, cast away in the night upon those
concealed rocks which I found when I was out in my boat; and which rocks, as they
checked the violence of the stream, and made a kind of counter-stream, or eddy,
were the occasion of my recovering from the most desperate, hopeless condition that
ever I had been in in all my life. Thus, what is one man's safety is another man's
destruction; for it seems these men, whoever they were, being out of their knowledge,
and the rocks being wholly under water, had been driven upon them in the night,
the wind blowing hard at ENE. Had they seen the island, as I must necessarily suppose
they did not, they must, as I thought, have endeavoured to have saved themselves
on shore by the help of their boat; but their firing off guns for help, especially
when they saw, as I imagined, my fire, filled me with many thoughts. First, I imagined
that upon seeing my light they might have put themselves into their boat, and endeavoured
to make the shore: but that the sea running very high, they might have been cast
away. Other times I imagined that they might have lost their boat before, as might
be the case many ways; particularly by the breaking of the sea upon their ship,
which many times obliged men to stave, or take in pieces, their boat, and sometimes
to throw it overboard with their own hands. Other times I imagined they had some
other ship or ships in company, who, upon the signals of distress they made, had
taken them up, and carried them off. Other times I fancied they were all gone off
to sea in their boat, and being hurried away by the current that I had been formerly
in, were carried out into the great ocean, where there was nothing but misery and
perishing: and that, perhaps, they might by this time think of starving, and of
being in a condition to eat one another.
As all these were but conjectures at best, so, in the condition I was in, I could
do no more than look on upon the misery of the poor men, and pity them; which had
still this good effect upon my side, that it gave me more and more cause to give
thanks to God, who had so happily and comfortably provided for me in my desolate
condition; and that of two ships' companies, who were now cast away upon this part
of the world, not one life should be spared but mine. I learned here again to observe,
that it is very rare that the providence of God casts us into any condition so low,
or any misery so great, but we may see something or other to be thankful for, and
may see others in worse circumstances than our own. Such certainly was the case
of these men, of whom I could not so much as see room to suppose any were saved;
nothing could make it rational so much as to wish or expect that they did not all
perish there, except the possibility only of their being taken up by another ship
in company; and this was but mere possibility indeed, for I saw not the least sign
or appearance of any such thing. I cannot explain, by any possible energy of words,
what a strange longing I felt in my soul upon this sight, breaking out sometimes
thus: "Oh that there had been but one or two, nay, or but one soul saved out of
this ship, to have escaped to me, that I might but have had one companion, one fellow-creature,
to have spoken to me and to have conversed with!" In all the time of my solitary
life I never felt so earnest, so strong a desire after the society of my fellow-creatures,
or so deep a regret at the want of it.
There are some secret springs in the affections which, when they are set a-going
by some object in view, or, though not in view, yet rendered present to the mind
by the power of imagination, that motion carries out the soul, by its impetuosity,
to such violent, eager embracings of the object, that the absence of it is insupportable.
Such were these earnest wishings that but one man had been saved. I believe I repeated
the words, "Oh that it had been but one!" a thousand times; and my desires were
so moved by it, that when I spoke the words my hands would clinch together, and
my fingers would press the palms of my hands, so that if I had had any soft thing
in my hand I should have crushed it involuntarily; and the teeth in my head would
strike together, and set against one another so strong, that for some time I could
not part them again. Let the naturalists explain these things, and the reason and
manner of them. All I can do is to describe the fact, which was even surprising
to me when I found it, though I knew not from whence it proceeded; it was doubtless
the effect of ardent wishes, and of strong ideas formed in my mind, realising the
comfort which the conversation of one of my fellow-Christians would have been to
me. But it was not to be; either their fate or mine, or both, forbade it; for, till
the last year of my being on this island, I never knew whether any were saved out
of that ship or no; and had only the affliction, some days after, to see the corpse
of a drowned boy come on shore at the end of the island which was next the shipwreck.
He had no clothes on but a seaman's waistcoat, a pair of open-kneed linen drawers,
and a blue linen shirt; but nothing to direct me so much as to guess what nation
he was of. He had nothing in his pockets but two pieces of eight and a tobacco pipe
- the last was to me of ten times more value than the first.
It was now calm, and I had a great mind to venture out in my boat to this wreck,
not doubting but I might find something on board that might be useful to me. But
that did not altogether press me so much as the possibility that there might be
yet some living creature on board, whose life I might not only save, but might,
by saving that life, comfort my own to the last degree; and this thought clung so
to my heart that I could not be quiet night or day, but I must venture out in my
boat on board this wreck; and committing the rest to God's providence, I thought
the impression was so strong upon my mind that it could not be resisted - that it
must come from some invisible direction, and that I should be wanting to myself
if I did not go.
Under the power of this impression, I hastened back to my castle, prepared everything
for my voyage, took a quantity of bread, a great pot of fresh water, a compass to
steer by, a bottle of rum (for I had still a great deal of that left), and a basket
of raisins; and thus, loading myself with everything necessary. I went down to my
boat, got the water out of her, got her afloat, loaded all my cargo in her, and
then went home again for more. My second cargo was a great bag of rice, the umbrella
to set up over my head for a shade, another large pot of water, and about two dozen
of small loaves, or barley cakes, more than before, with a bottle of goat's milk
and a cheese; all which with great labour and sweat I carried to my boat; and praying
to God to direct my voyage, I put out, and rowing or paddling the canoe along the
shore, came at last to the utmost point of the island on the north-east side. And
now I was to launch out into the ocean, and either to venture or not to venture.
I looked on the rapid currents which ran constantly on both sides of the island
at a distance, and which were very terrible to me from the remembrance of the hazard
I had been in before, and my heart began to fail me; for I foresaw that if I was
driven into either of those currents, I should be carried a great way out to sea,
and perhaps out of my reach or sight of the island again; and that then, as my boat
was but small, if any little gale of wind should rise, I should be inevitably lost.
These thoughts so oppressed my mind that I began to give over my enterprise;
and having hauled my boat into a little creek on the shore, I stepped out, and sat
down upon a rising bit of ground, very pensive and anxious, between fear and desire,
about my voyage; when, as I was musing, I could perceive that the tide was turned,
and the flood come on; upon which my going was impracticable for so many hours.
Upon this, presently it occurred to me that I should go up to the highest piece
of ground I could find, and observe, if I could, how the sets of the tide or currents
lay when the flood came in, that I might judge whether, if I was driven one way
out, I might not expect to be driven another way home, with the same rapidity of
the currents. This thought was no sooner in my head than I cast my eye upon a little
hill which sufficiently overlooked the sea both ways, and from whence I had a clear
view of the currents or sets of the tide, and which way I was to guide myself in
my return. Here I found, that as the current of ebb set out close by the south point
of the island, so the current of the flood set in close by the shore of the north
side; and that I had nothing to do but to keep to the north side of the island in
my return, and I should do well enough.
Encouraged by this observation, I resolved the next morning to set out with the
first of the tide; and reposing myself for the night in my canoe, under the watch-coat
I mentioned, I launched out. I first made a little out to sea, full north, till
I began to feel the benefit of the current, which set eastward, and which carried
me at a great rate; and yet did not so hurry me as the current on the south side
had done before, so as to take from me all government of the boat; but having a
strong steerage with my paddle, I went at a great rate directly for the wreck, and
in less than two hours I came up to it. It was a dismal sight to look at; the ship,
which by its building was Spanish, stuck fast, jammed in between two rocks. All
the stern and quarter of her were beaten to pieces by the sea; and as her forecastle,
which stuck in the rocks, had run on with great violence, her mainmast and foremast
were brought by the board - that is to say, broken short off; but her bowsprit was
sound, and the head and bow appeared firm. When I came close to her, a dog appeared
upon her, who, seeing me coming, yelped and cried; and as soon as I called him,
jumped into the sea to come to me. I took him into the boat, but found him almost
dead with hunger and thirst. I gave him a cake of my bread, and he devoured it like
a ravenous wolf that had been starving a fortnight in the snow; I then gave the
poor creature some fresh water, with which, if I would have let him, he would have
burst himself. After this I went on board; but the first sight I met with was two
men drowned in the cook-room, or forecastle of the ship, with their arms fast about
one another. I concluded, as is indeed probable, that when the ship struck, it being
in a storm, the sea broke so high and so continually over her, that the men were
not able to bear it, and were strangled with the constant rushing in of the water,
as much as if they had been under water. Besides the dog, there was nothing left
in the ship that had life; nor any goods, that I could see, but what were spoiled
by the water. There were some casks of liquor, whether wine or brandy I knew not,
which lay lower in the hold, and which, the water being ebbed out, I could see;
but they were too big to meddle with. I saw several chests, which I believe belonged
to some of the seamen; and I got two of them into the boat, without examining what
was in them. Had the stern of the ship been fixed, and the forepart broken off,
I am persuaded I might have made a good voyage; for by what I found in those two
chests I had room to suppose the ship had a great deal of wealth on board; and,
if I may guess from the course she steered, she must have been bound from Buenos
Ayres, or the Rio de la Plata, in the south part of America, beyond the Brazils
to the Havannah, in the Gulf of Mexico, and so perhaps to Spain. She had, no doubt,
a great treasure in her, but of no use, at that time, to anybody; and what became
of the crew I then knew not.
I found, besides these chests, a little cask full of liquor, of about twenty
gallons, which I got into my boat with much difficulty. There were several muskets
in the cabin, and a great powder-horn, with about four pounds of powder in it; as
for the muskets, I had no occasion for them, so I left them, but took the powder-horn.
I took a fire-shovel and tongs, which I wanted extremely, as also two little brass
kettles, a copper pot to make chocolate, and a gridiron; and with this cargo, and
the dog, I came away, the tide beginning to make home again - and the same evening,
about an hour within night, I reached the island again, weary and fatigued to the
last degree. I reposed that night in the boat and in the morning I resolved to harbour
what I had got in my new cave, and not carry it home to my castle. After refreshing
myself, I got all my cargo on shore, and began to examine the particulars. The cask
of liquor I found to be a kind of rum, but not such as we had at the Brazils; and,
in a word, not at all good; but when I came to open the chests, I found several
things of great use to me - for example, I found in one a fine case of bottles,
of an extraordinary kind, and filled with cordial waters, fine and very good; the
bottles held about three pints each, and were tipped with silver. I found two pots
of very good succades, or sweetmeats, so fastened also on the top that the salt-water
had not hurt them; and two more of the same, which the water had spoiled. I found
some very good shirts, which were very welcome to me; and about a dozen and a half
of white linen handkerchiefs and coloured neckcloths; the former were also very
welcome, being exceedingly refreshing to wipe my face in a hot day. Besides this,
when I came to the till in the chest, I found there three great bags of pieces of
eight, which held about eleven hundred pieces in all; and in one of them, wrapped
up in a paper, six doubloons of gold, and some small bars or wedges of gold; I suppose
they might all weigh near a pound. In the other chest were some clothes, but of
little value; but, by the circumstances, it must have belonged to the gunner's mate;
though there was no powder in it, except two pounds of fine glazed powder, in three
flasks, kept, I suppose, for charging their fowling-pieces on occasion. Upon the
whole, I got very little by this voyage that was of any use to me; for, as to the
money, I had no manner of occasion for it; it was to me as the dirt under my feet,
and I would have given it all for three or four pair of English shoes and stockings,
which were things I greatly wanted, but had had none on my feet for many years.
I had, indeed, got two pair of shoes now, which I took off the feet of two drowned
men whom I saw in the wreck, and I found two pair more in one of the chests, which
were very welcome to me; but they were not like our English shoes, either for ease
or service, being rather what we call pumps than shoes. I found in this seaman's
chest about fifty pieces of eight, in rials, but no gold: I supposed this belonged
to a poorer man than the other, which seemed to belong to some officer. Well, however,
I lugged this money home to my cave, and laid it up, as I had done that before which
I had brought from our own ship; but it was a great pity, as I said, that the other
part of this ship had not come to my share: for I am satisfied I might have loaded
my canoe several times over with money; and, thought I, if I ever escape to England,
it might lie here safe enough till I come again and fetch it.