They reached the wheat-barn and entered it. One end of the long structure was
full of corn; the middle was where the reed-drawing was carried on, and there had
already been placed in the reed-press the evening before as many sheaves of wheat
as would be sufficient for the women to draw from during the day.
''Why, here's Izz!'' said Marian.
Izz it was, and she came forward. She had walked all the way from her mother's
home on the previous afternoon, and, not deeming the distance so great, had been
belated, arriving, however, just before the snow began, and sleeping at the alehouse.
The farmer had agreed with her mother at market to take her on if she came today,
and she had been afraid to disappoint him by delay.
In addition to Tess, Marian, and Izz, there were two women from a neighbouring
village; two Amazonian sisters, whom Tess with a start remembered as Dark Car the
Queen of Spades and her junior the Queen of Diamonds-those who had tried to fight
with her in the midnight quarrel at Trantridge. They showed no recognition of her,
and possibly had none, for they had been under the influence of liquor on that occasion,
and were only temporary sojourners there as here. They did all kinds of men's work
of preference, including well-sinking, hedging, ditching, and excavating, without
any sense of fatigue. Noted reed-drawers were they too, and looked round upon the
other three with some superciliousness.
Putting on their gloves all set to work in a row in front of the press, an erection
formed of two posts connected by a cross-beam, under which the sheaves to be drawn
from were laid ears outward, the beam being pegged down by pins in the uprights,
and lowered as the sheaves diminished.
The day hardened in colour, the light coming in at the barndoors upwards from
the snow instead of downwards from the sky. The girls pulled handful after handful
from the press; but by reason of the presence of the strange women, who were recounting
scandals, Marian and Izz could not at first talk of old times as they wished to
do. Presently they heard the muffled tread of a horse, and the farmer rode up to
the barndoor. When he had dismounted he came close to Tess, and remained looking
musingly at the side of her face. She had not turned at first, but his fixed attitude
led her to look round, when she perceived that her employer was the native of Trantridge
from whom she had taken flight on the high-road because of his allusion to her history.
He waited till she had carried the drawn bundles to the pile outside, when he
said, ''So you be the young woman who took my civility in such ill part? Be drowned
if I didn't think you might be as soon as I heard of your being hired! Well, you
thought you had got the better of me the first time at the inn with your fancy-man,
and the second time on the road, when you bolted; but now I think I've got the better
you.'' He concluded with a hard laugh.
Tess, between the Amazons and the farmer like a bird caught in a clap-net, returned
no answer, continuing to pull the straw. She could read character sufficiently well
to know by this time that she had nothing to fear from her employer's gallantry;
it was rather the tyranny induced by his mortification at Clare's treatment of him.
Upon the whole she preferred that sentiment in man and felt brave enough to endure
it.
''You thought I was in love with 'ee I suppose? Some women are such fools, to
take every look as serious earnest. But there's nothing like a winter afield for
taking that nonsense out o' young wenches' heads; and you've signed and agreed till
Lady-Day. Now, are you going to beg my pardon?''
''I think you ought to beg mine.''
''Very well-as you like. But we'll see which is master here. Be they all the
sheaves you've done today?''
''Yes, sir.''
'''Tis a very poor show. Just see what they've done over there'' (pointing to
the two stalwart women). ''The rest, too, have done better than you.''
''They've all practised it before, and I have not. And I thought it made no difference
to you as it is task work, and we are only paid for what we do.''
''Oh, but it does. I want the barn cleared.''
''I am going to work all the afternoon instead of leaving at two as the others
will do.''
He looked sullenly at her and went away. Tess felt that she could not have come
to a much worse place; but anything was better than gallantry. When two o'clock
arrived the professional reed-drawers tossed off the last half-pint in their flagon,
put down their hooks, tied their last sheaves, and went away. Marian and Izz would
have done likewise, but on hearing that Tess meant to stay, to make up by longer
hours for her lack of skill, they would not leave her. Looking out at the snow,
which still fell, Marian exclaimed, ''Now, we've got it all to ourselves.'' And
so at last the conversation turned to their old experiences at the dairy; and, of
course, the incidents of their affection for Angel Clare.
''Izz and Marian,'' said Mrs Angel Clare, with a dignity which was extremely
touching, seeing how very little of a wife she was: ''I can't join in talk with
you now, as I used to do, about Mr Clare; you will see that I cannot; because, although
he is gone away from me for the present, he is my husband.''
Izz was by nature the sauciest and most caustic of all the four girls who had
loved Clare. ''He was a very splendid lover, no doubt,'' she said; ''but I don't
think he is a too fond husband to go away from you so soon.''
''He had to go-he was obliged to go, to see about the land over there!'' pleaded
Tess.
''He might have tided 'ee over the winter.''
''Ah-that's owing to an accident-a misunderstanding; and we won't argue it,''
Tess answered, with tearfulness in her words. ''Perhaps there's a good deal to be
said for him! He did not go away, like some husbands, without telling me; and I
can always find out where he is.''
After this they continued for some long time in a reverie, as they went on seizing
the ears of corn, drawing out the straw, gathering it under their arms, and cutting
off the ears with their bill-hooks, nothing sounding in the barn but the swish of
the straw and the crunch of the hook. Then Tess suddenly flagged, and sank down
upon the heap of wheat-ears at her feet.
''I knew you wouldn't be able to stand it!'' cried Marian. ''It wants harder
flesh than yours for this work.''
Just then the farmer entered. ''Oh, that's how you get on when I am away,'' he
said to her.
''But it is my own loss,'' she pleaded. ''Not yours.''
''I want it finished,'' he said doggedly, as he crossed the barn and went out
at the other door.
''Don't 'ee mind him, there's a dear,'' said Marian. ''I've worked here before.
Now you go and lie down there, and Izz and I will make up your number.''
''I don't like to let you do that. I'm taller than you, too.''
However, she was so overcome that she consented to lie down awhile, and reclined
on a heap of pull-tails-the refuse after the straight straw had been drawn-thrown
up at the further side of the barn. Her succumbing had been as largely owning to
agitation at the re-opening the subject of her separation from her husband as to
the hard work. She lay in a state of percipience without volition, and the rustle
of the straw and the cutting of the ears by the others had the weight of bodily
touches.
She could hear from her corner, in addition to these noises, the murmur of their
voices. She felt certain that they were continuing the subject already broached,
but their voices were so low that she could not catch the words. At last Tess grew
more and more anxious to know what they were saying, and, persuading herself that
she felt better, she got up and resumed work.
Then Izz Huett broke down. She had walked more than a dozen miles the previous
evening, had gone to bed at midnight, and had risen again at five o'clock. Marian
alone, thanks to her bottle of liquor and her stoutness of build, stood the strain
upon back and arms without suffering. Tess urged Izz to leave off, agreeing, as
she felt better, to finish the day without her, and make equal division of the number
of sheaves.
Izz accepted the offer gratefully, and disappeared through the great door into
the snowy track to her lodging. Marian, as was the case every afternoon at this
time on account of the bottle, began to feel in a romantic vein.
''I should not have thought it of him-never!'' she said in a dreamy tone. ''And
I loved him so! I didn't mind his having YOU. But this about Izz is too bad!''
Tess, in her start at the words, narrowly missed cutting off a finger with the
bill-hook.
''Is it about my husband?'' she stammered.
''Well, yes. Izz said, 'Don't 'ee tell her'; but I am sure I can't help it! It
was what he wanted Izz to do. He wanted her to go off to Brazil with him.''
Tess's face faded as white as the scene without, and its curves straightened.
''And did Izz refuse to go?'' she asked.
''I don't know. Anyhow he changed his mind.''
''Pooh-then he didn't mean it! 'Twas just a man's jest!''
''Yes he did; for he drove her a good-ways towards the station.''
''He didn't take her!''
They pulled on in silence till Tess, without any premonitory symptoms, burst
out crying.
''There!'' said Marian. ''Now I wish I hadn't told 'ee!''
''No. It is a very good thing that you have done! I have been living on in a
thirtover, lackaday way, and have not seen what it may lead to! I ought to have
sent him a letter oftener. He said I could not go to him, but he didn't say I was
not to write as often as I liked. I won't dally like this any longer! I have been
very wrong and neglectful in leaving everything to be done by him!''
The dim light in the barn grew dimmer, and they could see to work no longer.
When Tess had reached home that evening, and had entered into the privacy of her
little white-washed chamber, she began impetuously writing a letter to Clare. But
falling into doubt she could not finish it. Afterwards she took the ring from the
ribbon on which she wore it next her heart, and retained it on her finger all night,
as if to fortify herself in the sensation that she was really the wife of this elusive
lover of hers, who could propose that Izz should go with him abroad, so shortly
after he had left her. Knowing that, how could she write entreaties to him, or show
that she cared for him any more?
XLIV
By the disclosure in the barn her thoughts were led anew in the direction which
they had taken more than once of late-to the distant Emminster Vicarage. It was
through her husband's parents that she had been charged to send a letter to Clare
if she desired; and to write to them direct if in difficulty. But that sense of
her having morally no claim upon him had always led Tess to suspend her impulse
to send these notes; and to the family at the Vicarage, therefore, as to her own
parents since her marriage, she was virtually non-existent. This self-effacement
in both directions had been quite in consonance with her independent character of
desiring nothing by way of favour or pity to which she was not entitled on a fair
consideration of her deserts. She had set herself to stand or fall by her qualities,
and to waive such merely technical claims upon a strange family as had been established
for her by the flimsy fact of a member of that family, in a season of impulse, writing
his name in a church-book beside hers.
But now that she was stung to a fever by Izz's tale there was a limit to her
powers of renunciation. Why had her husband not written to her? He had distinctly
implied that he would at least let her know of the locality to which he had journeyed;
but he had not sent a line to notify his address. Was he really indifferent? But
was he ill? Was it for her to make some advance? Surely she might summon the courage
of solicitude, call at the Vicarage for intelligence, and express her grief at his
silence. If Angel's father were the good man she had heard him represented to be,
he would be able to enter into her heart-starved situation. Her social hardships
she could conceal.
To leave the farm on a week-day was not in her power; Sunday was the only possible
opportunity. Flintcomb-Ash being in the middle of the cretaceous tableland over
which no railway had climbed as yet, it would be necessary to walk. And the distance
being fifteen miles each way she would have to allow herself a long day for the
undertaking by rising early.
A fortnight later, when the snow had gone, and had been followed by a hard black
frost, she took advantage of the state of the roads to try the experiment. At four
o'clock that Sunday morning she came downstairs and stepped out into the starlight.
The weather was still favourable, the ground ringing under her feet like an anvil.
Marian and Izz were much interested in her excursion, knowing that the journey
concerned her husband. Their lodgings were in a cottage a little further along the
lane, but they came and assisted Tess in her departure, and argued that she should
dress up in her very prettiest guise to captivate the hearts of her parents-in-law;
though she, knowing of the austere and Calvinistic tenets of old Mr Clare, was indifferent,
and even doubtful. A year had now elapsed since her sad marriage, but she had preserved
sufficient draperies from the wreck of her then full wardrobe to clothe her very
charmingly as a simple country girl with no pretensions to recent fashion; a soft
gray woollen gown, with white crape quilling against the pink skin of her face and
neck, and a black velvet jacket and hat.