''No-I never told him-if I am an infidel.''
''Well-you are better off today that I am, Tess, after all! You don't believe
that you ought to preach my doctrine, and, therefore, do no despite to your conscience
in abstaining. I do believe I ought to preach it, but like the devils I believe
and tremble, for I suddenly leave off preaching it, and give way to my passion for
you.''
''How?''
''Why,'' he said aridly; ''I have come all the way here to see you today! But
I started from home to go to Casterbridge Fair, where I have undertaken to preach
the Word from a waggon at half-past two this afternoon, and where all the brethren
are expecting me this minute. Here's the announcement.''
He drew from his breast-pocket a poster whereon was printed the day, hour, and
place of meeting, at which he, d'Urberville, would preach the Gospel as aforesaid.
''But how can you get there?'' said Tess, looking at the clock.
''I cannot get there! I have come here.''
''What, you have really arranged to preach, and-''
''I have arranged to preach, and I shall not be there-by reason of my burning
desire to see a woman whom I once despised!-No, by my word and truth, I never despised
you; if I had I should not love you now! Why I did not despise you was on account
of your being unsmirched in spite of all; you withdrew yourself from me so quickly
and resolutely when you saw the situation; you did not remain at my pleasure; so
there was one petticoat in the world for whom I had no contempt, and you are she.
But you may well despise me now! I thought I worshipped on the mountains, but I
find I still serve in the groves! Ha! ha!''
''O Alec d'Urberville! what does this mean? What have I done!''
''Done?'' he said, with a soulless sneer in the word. ''Nothing intentionally.
But you have been the means-the innocent means-of my backsliding, as they call it.
I ask myself, am I, indeed, one of those 'servants of corruption' who, 'after they
have escaped the pollutions of the world, are again entangled therein and overcome'-whose
latter end is worse than their beginning?'' He laid his hand on her shoulder. ''Tess,
my girl, I was on the way to, at least, social salvation till I saw you again!''
he said freakishly shaking her, as if she were a child. ''And why then have you
tempted me? I was firm as a man could be till I saw those eyes and that mouth again-surely
there never was such a maddening mouth since Eve's!'' His voice sank, and a hot
archness shot from his own black eyes. ''You temptress, Tess; you dear damned witch
of Babylon-I could not resist you as soon as I met you again!''
''I couldn't help your seeing me again!'' said Tess, recoiling.
''I know it-I repeat that I do not blame you. But the fact remains. When I saw
you ill-used on the farm that day I was nearly mad to think that I had no legal
right to protect you-that I could not have it; whilst he who has it seemed to neglect
you utterly!''
''Don't speak against him-he is absent!'' she cried in much excitement. ''Treat
him honourably-he has never wronged you! O leave his wife before any scandal spreads
that may do harm to his honest name!''
''I will-I will,'' he said, like a man awakening from a luring dream. ''I have
broken my engagement to preach to those poor drunken boobies at the fair-it is the
first time I have played such a practical joke. A month ago I should have been horrified
at such a possibility. I'll go away-to swear-and-ah, can I! to keep away.'' Then,
suddenly: ''One clasp, Tessy-one! Only for old friendship-''
''I am without defence. Alec! A good man's honour is in my keeping-think-be ashamed!''
''Pooh! Well, yes-yes!''
He clenched his lips, mortified with himself for his weakness. His eyes were
equally barren of worldly and religious faith. The corpses of those old fitful passions
which had lain inanimate amid the lines of his face ever since his reformation seemed
to wake and come together as in a resurrection. He went out indeterminately.
Though d'Urberville had declared that this breach of his engagement today was
the simple backsliding of a believer, Tess's words, as echoed from Angel Clare,
had made a deep impression upon him, and continued to do so after he had left her.
He moved on in silence, as if his energies were benumbed by the hitherto undreamt-of
possibility that his position was untenable. Reason had had nothing to do with his
whimsical conversion, which was perhaps the mere freak of a careless man in search
of a new sensation, and temporarily impressed by his mother's death.
The drops of logic Tess had let fall into the sea of his enthusiasm served to
chill its effervescence to stagnation. He said to himself, as he pondered again
and again over the crystallized phrases that she had handed on to him, ''That clever
fellow little thought that, by telling her those things, he might be paving my way
back to her!''
XLVII
It is the threshing of the last wheat-rick at Flintcomb-Ash farm. The dawn of the
March morning is singularly inexpressive, and there is nothing to show where the
eastern horizon lies. Against the twilight rises the trapezoidal top of the stack,
which has stood forlornly here through the washing and bleaching of the wintry weather.
When Izz Huett and Tess arrived at the scene of operations only a rustling denoted
that others had preceded them; to which, as the light increased, there were presently
added the silhouettes of two men on the summit. They were busily ''unhaling'' the
rick, that is, stripping off the thatch before beginning to throw down the sheaves;
and while this was in progress Izz and Tess, with the other women-workers, in their
whitey-brown pinners, stood waiting and shivering, Farmer Groby having insisted
upon their being on the spot thus early to get the job over if possible by the end
of the day. Close under the eaves of the stack, and as yet barely visible, was the
red tyrant that the women had come to serve-a timber-framed construction, with straps
and wheels appertaining-the threshing-machine which, whilst it was going, kept up
a despotic demand upon the endurance of their muscles and nerves. A little way off
there was another indistinct figure; this one black, with a sustained hiss that
spoke of strength very much in reserve. The long chimney running up beside an ash-tree,
and the warmth which radiated from the spot, explained without the necessity of
much daylight that here was the engine which was to act as the PRIMUM MOBILE of
this little world. By the engine stood a dark motionless being, a sooty and grimy
embodiment of tallness, in a sort of trance, with a heap of coals by his side: it
was the engineman. The isolation of his manner and colour lent him the appearance
of a creature from Tophet, who had strayed into the pellucid smokelessness of this
region of yellow grain and pale soil, with which he had nothing in common, to amaze
and to discompose its aborigines.
What he looked he felt. He was in the agricultural world, but not of it. He served
fire and smoke; these denizens of the fields served vegetation, weather, frost,
and sun. He travelled with his engine from farm to farm, from county to county,
for as yet the steam threshing-machine was itinerant in this part of Wessex. He
spoke in a strange northern accent; his thoughts being turned inwards upon himself,
his eye on his iron charge, hardly perceiving the scenes around him, and caring
for them not at all: holding only strictly necessary intercourse with the natives,
as if some ancient doom compelled him to wander here against his will in the service
of his Plutonic master. The long strap which ran from the driving-wheel of his engine
to the red thresher under the rick was the sole tie-line between agriculture and
him.
While they uncovered the sheaves he stood apathetic beside his portable repository
of force, round whose hot blackness the morning air quivered. He had nothing to
do with preparatory labour. His fire was waiting incandescent, his steam was at
high pressure, in a few seconds he could make the long strap move at an invisible
velocity. Beyond its extent the environment might be corn, straw, or chaos; it was
all the same to him. If any of the autochthonous idlers asked him what he called
himself, he replied shortly, ''an engineer.''
The rick was unhaled by full daylight; the men then took their places, the women
mounted, and the work began. Farmer Groby-or, as they called him, ''he''-had arrived
ere this, and by his orders Tess was placed on the platform of the machine, close
to the man who fed it, her business being to untie every sheaf of corn handed on
to her by Izz Huett, who stood next, but on the rick; so that the feeder could seize
it and spread it over the revolving drum, which whisked out every grain in one moment.
They were soon in full progress, after a preparatory hitch or two, which rejoiced
the hearts of those who hated machinery. The work sped on till breakfast time, when
the thresher was stopped for half an hour; and on starting again after the meal
the whole supplementary strength of the farm was thrown into the labour of constructing
the straw-rick, which began to grow beside the stack of corn. A hasty lunch was
eaten as they stood, without leaving their positions, and then another couple of
hours brought them near to dinner-time; the inexorable wheel continuing to spin,
and the penetrating hum of the thresher to thrill to the very marrow all who were
near the revolving wire-cage.
The old men on the rising straw-rick talked of the past days when they had been
accustomed to thresh with flails on the oaken barn-door; when everything, even to
winnowing, was effected by hand-labour, which, to their thinking, though slow, produced
better results. Those, too, on the corn-rick talked a little; but the perspiring
ones at the machine, including Tess, could not lighten their duties by the exchange
of many words. It was the ceaselessness of the work which tried her so severely,
and began to make her wish that she had never some to Flintcomb-Ash. The women on
the corn-rick-Marian, who was one of them, in particular-could stop to drink ale
or cold tea from the flagon now and then, or to exchange a few gossiping remarks
while they wiped their faces or cleared the fragments of straw and husk from their
clothing; but for Tess there was no respite; for, as the drum never stopped, the
man who fed it could not stop, and she, who had to supply the man with untied sheaves,
could not stop either, unless Marian changed places with her, which she sometimes
did for half an hour in spite of Groby's objections that she was too slow-handed
for a feeder.
For some probably economical reason it was usually a woman who was chosen for
this particular duty, and Groby gave as his motive in selecting Tess that she was
one of those who best combined strength with quickness in untying, and both with
staying power, and this may have been true. The hum of the thresher, which prevented
speech, increased to a raving whenever the supply of corn fell short of the regular
quantity. As Tess and the man who fed could never turn their heads she did not know
that just before the dinner-hour a person had come silently into the field by the
gate, and had been standing under a second rick watching the scene, and Tess in
particular. He was dressed in a tweed suit of fashionable pattern, and he twirled
a gay walking-cane.
''Who is that?'' said Izz Huett to Marian. She had at first addressed the inquiry
to Tess, but the latter could not hear it.
''Somebody's fancy-man, I s'pose,'' said Marian laconically.
''I'll lay a guinea he's after Tess.''
''O no. 'Tis a ranter pa'son who's been sniffing after her lately; not a dandy
like this.''
''Well-this is the same man.''
''The same man as the preacher? But he's quite different!''
''He hev left off his black coat and white neckercher, and hev cut off his whiskers;
but he's the same man for all that.''
''D'ye really think so? Then I'll tell her,'' said Marian.
''Don't. She'll see him soon enough, good-now.''
''Well. I don't think it at all right for him to join his preaching to courting
a married woman, even though her husband mid be abroad, and she, in a sense, a widow.''
''Oh-he can do her no harm,'' said Izz drily. ''Her mind can no more be heaved
from that one place where it do bide than a stooded waggon from the hole he's in.
Lord love 'ee, neither court-paying, nor preaching, nor the seven thunders themselves,
can wean a woman when 'twould be better for her that she should be weaned.''
Dinner-time came, and the whirling ceased; whereupon Tess left her post, her
knees trembling so wretchedly with the shaking of the machine that she could scarcely
walk.
''You ought to het a quart o' drink into 'ee, as I've done,'' said Marian. ''You
wouldn't look so white then. Why, souls above us, your face is as if you'd been
hagrode!''
It occurred to the good-natured Marian that, as Tess was so tired, her discovery
of her visitor's presence might have the bad effect of taking away her appetite;
and Marian was thinking of inducing Tess to descend by a ladder on the further side
of the stack when the gentleman came forward and looked up.
Tess uttered a short little ''Oh!'' And a moment after she said, quickly, ''I
shall eat my dinner here-right on the rick.''
Sometimes, when they were so far from their cottages, they all did this; but
as there was rather a keen wind going today, Marian and the rest descended, and
sat under the straw-stack. The newcomer was, indeed, Alec d'Urberville, the late
Evangelist, despite his changed attire and aspect. It was obvious at a glance that
the original WELTLUST had come back; that he had restored himself, as nearly as
a man could do who had grown three or four years older, to the old jaunty, slapdash
guise under which Tess had first known her admirer, and cousin so-called. Having
decided to remain where she was, Tess sat down among the bundles, out of sight of
the ground, and began her meal; till, by-and-by, she heard footsteps on the ladder,
and immediately after Alec appeared upon the stack-now an oblong and level platform
of sheaves. He strode across them, and sat down opposite of her without a word.